awwww this made me cry when i read it. its pretty and touching. my best friend wrote it.... yay for depressed emo people.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005


I was hoping that this insanity of lying six feet down was just a dream

I was praying that it wasn’t real

I was just thinking,

I didn’t mean to slit my throat

But the blades just weren’t enough

To overcome all the pain



You have to understand, every night I cried

Every night leading up to this

I barely lived through each day

It’s a miracle I made it as far as I did

I’m just feel bad you had to see me like this



I feel bad this is your memory of me

That I had to give up

It was selfish, I know that now

A little too late I guess

I never thought it would end up this way

This time, I didn’t think



I’m sorry, I couldn’t handle it anymore

Please don’t shed your tears on me

Don’t waste those drops of blood on me

Don’t think of me with a hateful grimace

Try to remember those little times of goodness

And I have to regret that those times were an act too

But you don’t know that

You won’t ever know that now



Please don’t take this personally

I’d be back if I could

Or would I go back to the life of lies?

Decisions made now, time cannot change

Please don’t decide your fate to be the same

More pain lies from sitting on this side



Now I can see what I have done to everyone

Now I cannot live with pain, its done and over, forever

I’m not quite sure if this is heaven or hell,

Seeing you all cry is hell in itself

I could have called you right?

You would have answered you phones?

Why couldn’t you have answered last night?

I wasn’t strong enough, and you weren’t there.

Now you are here though.

Too late.
Posted 6/8/2005 at 12:45 PM